Life = Soul. Wrecked.

My life is as wrecked as my inner soul.

I have yet to find the ultimate reason of why I am alive apart from the crystal clear point of me being a slave to The Almighty, and honestly I am so greatfully thankful for that.

But, dear God, I am clueless of my future. I am so terribly unsure of what the future has to hold for me. I have zero idea- I have no plan (not even one), I have no money (literally a dependent of my sister and brothers) and I have no smile (somehow it has gone missing from my face).

Gosh.. I just got a news that all of us might be dismissed from the program, the job actually. Fcuk. What should I do?

I miss myself... my old self.